LAURA GRACE WELDON:
When just the two of us were alone, I set him on the carpet and lay down next to him. Then I imitated every single movement and sound my seven-week-old baby made.
I thought I’d indulge in this for only a minute or two, but I kept it up longer. Something about it transported me to my own bodily memory of infancy. I felt, from the inside, a sort of freedom from the physical template created by years of upright posture and acceptable facial expressions. I felt helpless, yes, but also expansively connected — as if my being didn’t end at the boundaries of my skin.
I got a message clear as spoken words that our bodies, mine older and his brand new, were temporal gifts. Our souls were the same size.
This is hard to admit because it sounds entirely weird, but it was such a powerful experience that I now look back at it as a sort of ceremony. Give baby choreography a try if you too want to step into an infant’s world.
Let me explain.
First time motherhood confounded me in a way I could not, still cannot, put into words. The new life in my arms astonished me. I’d never before looked so many hours at one face, day after day. I’d certainly never been simultaneously exhausted, enthralled, and overwrought for weeks on end. All the ways I knew to understand another human being were muddled, beyond what the heart knows and the eyes show. So I asked my body to teach me how brand new Benjamin perceived his world.
When just the two of us were alone, I set him on the carpet and lay down next…
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